Freshman Year

Freshman year had some rough patches and it appeared that I would give up all my hopes. I lost all sense of moral. I never could quite understand my mistakes in the first place. Maybe I was becoming far to delusional. But above all I became to over lee attached to the girls who I liked. I never realized the reality of it all till it hit me on the back like bullet penetrating your skin.
Every single time deep down inside I'd have these strong feelings for these girls as if they were the one that would end this heart aching journey. But my senses proved me wrong. I was still single and lonely at the end of the year.
My quest to seek love began early in the year. I sought to win her heart but it was taken. A darkness filled inside my heart and I fell deep into a darkness. But I decided that I'd search for another girl.

My wish came true , and  I was relinquished to hopefully finally find a girl whom I really liked. But the truth was I was misguided by my feelings for her just like the many others I had once tried to woe. I wrote her a letter releasing all of my feelings for her and she didn't take it well. The next day she told me that she had burned the letter which I had written. My whole world came crashing down like a meteor from space. I thought how could she say such a cruel thing? Why would she make my life more worse than it had already become after all the rejections. I asked her why she did that and she said cause that how they get rid of letters in lord of the rings. I looked at her oddly and left. I thought to myself she was to much of an odd person anyway. I convinced myself to keep trying despite my mind wanting to give up.
Then one day my friend Martwuan brought a girl to my attention. She wasn't like the others I could feel some sort of connection that would link us into a partnership. I was afaird that my thoughts once again had decived me. So I sent Martwuan with messages to her every once and awhile. It appeared that everything was going smoothly but then I realized something, if I truly wish to win her heart I must talk to her myself. But I couldn't even though I wanted to so badly. My nevers tedered on me as each day passed by. I grew more and more anxious to speak with her but still I couldn't. I let her slip away just like the rest. But their is still hope that remains if I ever speak to her in person.
The truth is I'm just a boy seeking love. But until that day comes when I find love I stand alone on a thin wire ready to break. Ready to be set free and out into the world beyond
However one day this girl spoke to me. Her words inspired me to never give up despite my loses, and that one day true love will find me, and to never ever give up hope.