Blame

Blame is all apart of the self-conscience, it's our emotional response to a situation that didn't end in our favor.
When we blame someone we rarely take into account our own actions prior to the event that occurred.
We just don't want to take the fault for whatever happened.
So say we do blame someone, I ask you what have we accomplished?
Nothing we are at no higher standing point than we where before, it's just a feeling of relief that we don't have to worry about our situation anymore because we let another person take the blame for our own  actions.

I never could really figure out how I felt about Jessica.

 I wasn't sure if I liked her for a legitimate reason or if I was just living a teenage fantasy.

 I always admired her for her beauty, but then again is that a good enough reason?

 Or is there something deeper than her beauty that I admired fondly?  

I am not sure at least at the moment.

I remember the first time I saw her I was blown away by her beauty.

I wanted to go up to her and just tell her how beautiful she was, but then I thought that it be best just to introduce myself first before I go off saying that.

Just as I began to walk over to her some guy went up to her and started making out with her.

I thought to myself well there goes that idea, my thoughts where interrupted when my friend Tawun came and spoke to man.

" I seen you eyeing that girl over there" he said.

" Ya well man I tried she already has a boy." I said.

" Dude chicks dig friendships you go on over there and become her friend, I guarantee you man you'll go places." he said.

" Well that's easier said than done man."

" Dang it man, you got to stop hiding behind your fears. One day your going to wake up and you know what your going to realize? Your going to realize that what you are doing now is foolish and your going to regret not talking to her."

" Alright man, I'll talk to her."

" Just be yourself and you'll be fine."

I began to walk over to her every step I took my foot got heavier.

 I could hear the echo of my own heart beat.

I took deep breaths and finally I made it over to her.

I introduced myself and we went from there.

We developed a strong relationship overtime and I knew I could always count on her.

The truth is I still haven't figured it out maybe I do, maybe I don't I just guess I'll have to wait to find out.  

Someone Like You

Take a moment to close your eyes.
Take a deep breath and inhale the world and you'll soon realize that the whole world is just as beautiful as you.
Yourself realization is the first step onto finding happiness.
During and without love I've seen beautiful glass shatter into pieces.
I have helped you get back up when you needed it the most, but your true savior was yourself.
Your personality has always been very compelling and any guy would be honored to be with you.
You're beautiful just the way you are you just didn't allow yourself to accept it.

Every time I see you I think that just maybe you'll be the one that saves me.
I have been lost these past few years, and you've helped me regain my footing and you have directed me towards happiness.
Every time I think of us being together it's mind boggling not  knowing if you feel the same way.
I tell myself that I got to let you know how I feel,  however when I come to think of it that's something that is easier said than done.
I don't even think I'd have the courage to tell you because the feelings I feel about you can't just be all described in a few words.
I don't quite know how to express how I feel about you maybe some day I will all I do know is that I love you with all my heart and that's all that matters to me.


  

A Love Story

As the night became dark, she came and shined a light on me.
Before I meet her I there was apart of me missing, but when she came she shared the wholeness of her heart.
I was frozen with a fear that she might of disappear before I had given her the truth.
I didn't quite know how to express myself.
I was afraid that if I did I'd lose her as a friend.
I never could quite get the courage to tell her how I felt, but now that she is out of my life I regret not ever telling her.
The more I think about it the more regret not telling her the truth.
I love her from the bottom of my heart.
I keep telling myself that this isn't the way how I want it to end and that I need to change this before we drift to far apart.
So I have decided I will go out into the world to go looking for her, whether it be from sea to sea or coast to coast I will find her and I will spend the rest of my life with her.
Because although this might sound crazy a part of me deep down inside tells me that she feels the same way.

Friendship

More anything in the world I miss your friendship.
I miss how we use to laugh about old times.
I miss how you'd make me feel happy when I was down.
If I could relive those days, I'd do anything.